what have I grown up to be? this? it’s just disgraceful
I really shouldn’t have read that. I was so out of line and everything. if I didn’t do that, I wouldn’t be up this late or early, whichever. I really hope that you don’t feel that way, but I’m just building up myself so I can fall, crash down because I know it’s not true and that you actually do feel that way. you probably just didn’t want to hurt my feelings. how could I believe for one moment, one split millisecond, that you actually cared? how could i be so gullible and naive to trust you so easily? I basically put my life in your hands and you just threw it away. I’m so terribly sorry that I hurt you in that way, I really didn’t mean to hurt you, especially you, at all. I love you, but is there any reason why someone should love someone else who doesn’t love them back?